Sometime in our life, we wish to become "someone" whom everybody wants, whom everybody admires. But the fact of life is this: we will become someone we didn't expect us to be. Just like in my very own precious life. I never imagined myself being a preacher, standing in front of many people, giving them the encouragement they need for their spiritual life. But the day I was finally brought here, I told myself I will never be ashamed of where God had put me.
Many people, especially those who closely know me, and those who expects a lot from me gives me a frown when they see me and ask, "Why?" In return, I also come to ask them, "Why?" What's wrong with my life? It as if they are all telling me that I made the wrong choice, that I've been in a wrong path. But honestly, my heart and my soul speaks up everytime and tells me, "this is what I want."
I am blessed because my parents, my siblings, and my friends have understood me more than anyone else. Though there are times that questions cannot be avoided, I could feel their love by contantly reminding me at the end of the day that nothing changes. They still love me, they still treat me the way they treat me before, and I value that so much. That's why I also try to be equally human when I am with them, though I admit that being a preacher had changed a lot from me especially on how I see things.
Many cannot understand me. They say I will not gain success in my chosen field, but I may say that I actually had acquired success on the time I chose to be what I am now. I don't understand myself either, but all I can say is...I can feel that this is what God wants me to be, and I know that I will never regret this. And well, I know that if God doesn't want me to serve Him this way anymore, He will put me on where He wants me to be, so I'm just waiting and enjoying the life he had given me for now.
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